I can’t…

I can’t get wet whenever it rains. I can’t put my feet up on the table. I can’t not wash clothes. I can’t step out not having combed. I can’t sleep whenever & wherever I like. I can’t eat whatever & how much ever I like. I can’t say everything that comes to my mind. I can’t let any random thing come to my mind. I can’t ogle at beauty. I can’t be childish. I can’t be angry. I can’t throw tantrums. I can’t be independent. I can’t be dependent. I can’t be penniless. I can’t have everything. I can’t stay away from my parents. I can’t stay with them. I can’t worry. I can’t not worry. I can’t think of tomorrow. I can’t not think of it. I can’t watch movies. I can’t decide to go on a trip in 5 minutes. I can’t ride around the world. I can’t not study. I can’t study.

Why am I even alive?